Since I last published something on here. I changed my portfolio concentration last minute and pumped out 12 fabulous penguin pieces. I graduated highschool with a 3.65 GPA, Summa Cum Laude, and am relishing my last free summer. I found out this morning that I'll be attending a private art college in Sunnyvale, something I've worked towards for the last four years. I feel as though I've finally found a place to be in the world and made attainable goals. The leap to college is daunting, but I'm ready. Although I only received a score of 3/5 on my AP 2D Design portfolio, I'm not going to let anything hold me back. The Digital Arts and Animation program at Cogswell Polytechnical College will hopefully set me straight and nurture the creativity and skill I know I have. I'm anxiously awaiting my orientation on August 19th.
Personally, things have begun to improve. I'm in a good place mentally and emotionally, and the love of my life returned, albeit with some resistance on my part. It hasn't been the easiest road, but having him back and taking a second chance at the real love I found has brought part of me back to life. He and I both had time to grow and learn during our six months apart, and I'm gambling with my heart when I bet that the two of us have a chance at this, but it's one I was and am willing to make. He made mistakes, I handled them incorrectly, but throughout the entire ordeal I remained true to my self and my values and became stronger by pulling myself through. Hopefully he can learn to appreciate the independant and strong person I have become. It's still bumpy, getting to know eachother once again and rehashing old issues for the sake of improvement, but I can only hope that the outcome is worth the effort. I know that despite everything, he lights up my life and gives me a little extra happiness on top of the positivity that I create for myself. Having him as I move forward into college will be helpful, stability and security in a time of uncertainty and chaos.
On a lighter note, I got my industrial piercing. It's fantastic and I love it, it makes me want to get more piercings xD Next on my list a helix piercing and my tattoo. I also need to line up a job in good ole San Jose (good luck with that), and wheels of some kind, although my dream school is accessible by VTA Lightrail. At the moment I'm enjoying a vacation with my family in southern Oregon, relaxing, drawing, dancing, cooking, and laughing all the while. I miss him, but even on my down days being around my siblings and my mom really does spark up my life. I feel homesick because he's not here, and because I have a wonderful higher education to look forward to, but this place will always have a special sense of 'home' for me.
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